Why did I choose to study Public Health?

Hello dear readers,

As you already know from my previous posts that I am currently studying public health and currently working in health adminsitration (records to be specific).  I thought I’ll share my story on why I choose this and not a course related to my job?

Basically I graduated with a bachelor of Science in Safety, Health and Environment. After sitting in uni for sometime and graduating 5 years ago, I knew I needed to find full-time work. Months before my grduation ceremony in November 2011, my mum mentioned working in hospital and took it as an opportunity to try. During my studies, I did a range of volunteer work at univeristy and took on student casual jobs mostly in student adminsitration, even a stint in christmas retail the first year of univeristy ended. These were mainly to bump my experience so I didn’t want to be a graduate without experience (yes this happens). From these experiences, I enjoyed being able to make a difference to students and acquire general clerical experience. I did a stint at a pharmacy a few months after but the experience and environment was isolating, overwhelming and depressing, nor did I want to work for elderly pharmacy store owners and so I quit and it wasn’t for me.

I started looking for health jobs and applied for a local but wasnt successful that time. That was December 2011 and then I went on holiday and held off job hunting until I got back. January 2012,  I applied for a records position but at a hosptial on the North Side, interviewed twice but ended up with a temporary position and May was when I started full time. Mostly behind the scenes work and a year later and my contract was extended. However, I wasn’t being fullfilled as it became repetitive and that time I started looking for permanent jobs and I was successful in securing one closer to home in a newly created department to where I am now, same field.

August 2015 hit and I decided to go back into study as I needed change from the indutry I am currently in. At that stage, I was getting exposure to outside the department and I still remember being a secretary for the steering committee for a project. Management changed and unfortunately I haven’t had an opportuniy to outside thie department last year. I also paid all my debt from my previous study. One of my aspirations was health policy but now am considering enviromental health, communciable disease or research / project roles. At that stage, I decided to attend the post-graduate nights in Septmeber and then the univeristy i’m currently at was introducing my current degree to commence in 2016 and went ot that to. I applied online and then November 2015. I was offered my current degree and am about to resume second year very soon.

I’ve also mentioned in one of my previous posts that I am no longer inspired and fullfilled on where I am working. Intellect is also what I am looking in my future job. Yes I have colleagues that are doing coding courses / health administration courses but honestly, I am not interested nor is it my passion in that area. For the time being, I’ll just take on roles that suit me until I can get roles in my desired areas.  I really need to get out of this bubble that I in.

I would rather work with research / projects / rather than being chained to a clerical dead end job with uninspiring colleagues way off my league, brain turned into mush and feeling dead inside. A year ago I was working on my skills but after last minute changes in roles not being filled approrpriately in the final quarter of last year and seeing it all,  I’m done. Yes for reselience but you reach a a point and need to get out. Another rant done.

I find that public health does serve a purpose in life in preventing, promoting and prolonging life.

At times I do worry whether I will get a foot in the door in public health. Where I work isn’t helping me achieve this so time to seek another avenue. I’m not on campus frequently either. Maybe I want to switch to health policy degree or switch to something else or transfer. I’m at a loss here… The jobs I see and interested in require a completed masters, experience  and skils in course that I haven’t even done yet :(.  A lot of these roles are temporary and I know I am a long way to where I want to be.

On the upside, 2 Distinctions so far :).

There’s my story and I hope you enjoyed reading it or if you are feeling the same then I empathise with you.

Blogging here makes me feel better.

Until next time.

x L

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Personal experience with Aspergers.

Hello again,

As you may have seen that I was diagnosed with Asperger’s Syndrome as a child. So I decided to shed my light on this topic.

The definition of Asperger’s is ‘high functioning’ on the Austim spectrum disorder spectrum and have difficulty with social, emotional and communcation skills. They view the world differently and have particular interests. High functioning means it’s less severe than compared to people on the Autism spectrum disorder.

When I was younger it was hard growing up. Getting upset over little things but most likely being sensitive, being socially awkard (having little friends), found it hard to adapt to change from primary to high school. I was put in a special class for the first 2 years of primary school. Being diagnosed early and with appropriate therapy did help me become ok, with a few slip ups here and there. The high school years consisted of school, tutoring, minimal social life. Honestly, I feel like I didnt need those resources as I felt I was spoonfed rather than using my own brain. Also I didn’t like my body image as I struggled with weight.

I happened to be a ‘walking dictionary’ when I was younger. Aspergians tend to be wired differnetly and see thing differently.

The high school from university in contrast was a better tranisition as I really dislked the school I was in. I didn’t feel upset or anything like that. This may be different from notmal Aspergerians who can sometimes struggle with univeristy.  Subject wise in university, I ended up dropping out of arts as I really wanted to finish my degree. Plus the coursework wasn;t easy as the language progressed. Same with science subjects where I only lasted 1 year in a pharmacoloiy/physiology and decided it wasn’t for me.  That’s where I switched to a dafety major in which the content was easier to absorb from a commerce subject to a statistics which was ok to me. I’m definetly no math person either and found words / writing suited me better.

Aspergians struggle with the social side of things, can become easily overwhelmed. I didn’t really get into the whole student parties, clubs etc. When I was invited, I declined.  I did however undertake casual jobs and volunteer work throughout my degree. Sure sex was a common thing but I just didn’t get it nor did it cross my mind. Looking back I didn’t really care, aside from the one encounter (see first timers story).

Yeah sure I had a few crush rejections but honestly, we go through that. There have been one’s that show interest but I have no attraction to.

If I desire something, I find it hard to communicate hence I prefer the males to ask me if they are interested. I couldn’t do all the talking as it sometimes drains me brain cells (if you are an Aspie, then you’ll understand).  I too can become overwhelmed on whether they are looking for the same thing or not. If I go through a dry spell then let it be. If there was an opporunity then I’d take it but likewise, not going to overthink it.

Now that I’m older, if i do get invited or if there is a social event, I don’t mind going although I’d rather be dancing the night away  (if there was one) then sitting around and chatting.

I keep things short and sweet and if i need to explain, then I am happy to explain just as long as we are both on the same page.

Making out and excessive cuddling doesn’t do it for me as gives me a sense of being suffocated. I dont mind being ‘touched’ elsewhere though.

Work wise, in relation to my last post, Aspergians can loose focus and that’s what I feel with my past two full time jobs. Sure there are ways to say X and yes these are techniques but do i really have to be a robot?  It doesn’t fullfill me if you have read the last post.

So there is my experience with  Aspergers Syndrome and for those who have goals from personal to learning, I’d say go for it!

Till next time

x L

How I feel right now, career wise.

Here’s another thought post (if you do find them interesting) on a different note:

The job that I do is mentally unstimulating, unfullfilling and dull. At the end of each day I come out feeling blah or drained. I’ve been in the field for nearly 5 years and I feel that I haven’t gone far. I feel like on repeat day in day out when I answer calls and do behind the scenes work. Meeting mintues, setting agendas like providing support is what I am capable of doing. Project work or research is what I’d like to get exposure on.  I’ll only take on positions if suited until I can finish my degree and shift my focus towards public health, unless I find something that is more suited to my career goals. I cant predict the future.

In a place where most have kids, all female (apart from one male but taken),  I would rather tune out to what they say. Also it’s different when your career goals are compeltely different and that I am seeking change. If there was a public health unit or anyone in that field that would like to take me, I put my hand up to get experience!

Where I am work wise, I don’t feel that I am making a difference if that makes sense? I’ve decided to undertake a public health degree to change career paths,  make things better, meaningful and improve the quality of health and life.

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Public health, even the major I studied at my previous univeristy covers occupational health and safety.
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Prevent. Promote. Protect

Will I be able to get experience in those fields?? With colleagues who aren’t on the same focus doesnt make me feel inspired to work there.

Anwyays enough of me ranting :(.

Anyways, over and out.

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