She is back.

She is back in action with her public health class. The class is social perspectives in public health and this subject so far is quite good. Her first day also involed a community transect walk around a local town in no so great weather conditions from observing traffic, people, noise levels to shops and street commerce, even houses. From a public health perspective, it’s to get a feel of the town and how the urban environment affects one’s health. Useful for those policy-makers to suggest rules and regulations into the town to become a better living area.

There were a lot of fresh faces as the majority of people were starting out as well :).

Friday night was a friend’s birthday at the winery. Drinks and food to share around and good catch-ups.

Tommorow is a wedding so today is catch up readings and a few housework duties.

That is all ūüôā


Why did I choose to study Public Health?

Hello dear readers,

As you already know from my previous posts that I am currently studying public health and currently working in health adminsitration (records to be specific). ¬†I thought I’ll share my story on why I choose this and not a course related to my job?

Basically I graduated with a bachelor of Science in Safety, Health and Environment. After sitting in uni for sometime and graduating 5 years ago, I knew I needed to find full-time work. Months before my grduation ceremony in November 2011, my mum mentioned working in hospital and took it as an opportunity to try. During my studies, I did a range of volunteer work at univeristy and took on student casual jobs mostly in student adminsitration, even a stint in christmas retail the first year of univeristy ended. These were mainly to bump my experience so I didn’t want to be a graduate without experience (yes this happens). From these experiences, I enjoyed being able to make a difference to students and acquire general clerical experience. I did a stint at a pharmacy a few months after but the experience and environment was isolating, overwhelming and depressing, nor did I want to work for elderly pharmacy store owners and so I quit and it wasn’t for me.

I started looking for health jobs and applied for a local but wasnt successful that time. That was December 2011 and then I went on holiday and held off job hunting until I got back. January 2012, ¬†I applied for a records position but at a hosptial on the North Side, interviewed twice but ended up with a temporary position and May was when I started full time. Mostly behind the scenes work and a year later and my contract was extended. However, I wasn’t being fullfilled as it became repetitive and that time I started looking for permanent jobs and I was successful in securing one closer to home in a newly created department to where I am now, same field.

August 2015 hit and I decided to go back into study as I needed change from the indutry I am currently in. At that stage, I was getting exposure to outside the department and I still remember being a secretary for the steering committee for a project. Management changed and unfortunately I haven’t had an opportuniy to outside thie department last year. I also paid all my debt from my previous study. One of my aspirations was health policy but now am considering enviromental health, communciable disease or research / project roles. At that stage, I decided to attend the post-graduate nights in Septmeber and then the univeristy i’m currently at was introducing my current degree to commence in 2016 and went ot that to. I applied online and then November 2015. I was offered my current degree and am about to resume second year very soon.

I’ve also mentioned in one of my previous posts that I am no longer inspired and fullfilled on where I am working. Intellect is also what I am looking in my future job. Yes I have colleagues that are doing coding courses / health administration courses but honestly, I am not interested nor is it my passion in that area. For the time being, I’ll just take on roles that suit me until I can get roles in my desired areas. ¬†I really need to get out of this bubble that I in.

I would rather work with research / projects / rather than being chained to a clerical dead end job with uninspiring colleagues way off my league, brain turned into mush and feeling dead inside. A year ago I was working on my skills but after last minute changes in roles not being filled approrpriately in the final quarter of last year and seeing it all, ¬†I’m done. Yes for reselience but you reach a a point and need to get out. Another rant done.

I find that public health does serve a purpose in life in preventing, promoting and prolonging life.

At times I do worry whether I will get a foot in the door in public health. Where I work isn’t helping me achieve this so time to seek another avenue. I’m not on campus frequently either. Maybe I want to switch to health policy degree or switch to something else or transfer. I’m at a loss here… The jobs I see and interested in require a completed masters, experience ¬†and skils in course that I haven’t even done yet :(. ¬†A lot of these roles are temporary and I know I am a long way to where I want to be.

On the upside, 2 Distinctions so far :).

There’s my story and I hope you enjoyed reading it or if you are feeling the same then I empathise with you.

Blogging here makes me feel better.

Until next time.

x L

Personal experience with Aspergers.

Hello again,

As you may have seen that I was diagnosed with Asperger’s Syndrome as a child. So I decided to shed my light on this topic.

The definition of Asperger’s is ‘high functioning’ on the Austim spectrum disorder spectrum and have difficulty with social, emotional and communcation skills. They view the world differently and have particular interests. High functioning means it’s less severe than compared to people on the Autism spectrum disorder.

When I was younger it was hard growing up. Getting upset over little things but most likely being sensitive, being socially awkard (having little friends), found it hard to adapt to change from primary to high school. I was put in a special class for the first 2 years of primary school. Being diagnosed early and with appropriate therapy did help me become ok, with a few slip ups here and there. The high school years consisted of school, tutoring, minimal social life. Honestly, I feel like I didnt need those resources as I felt I was spoonfed rather than using my own brain. Also I didn’t like my body image as I struggled with weight.

I happened to be a ‘walking dictionary’ when I was younger. Aspergians tend to be wired differnetly and see thing differently.

The high school from university in contrast was a better tranisition as I really dislked the school I was in. I didn’t feel upset or anything like that. This may be different from notmal Aspergerians who can sometimes struggle with univeristy. ¬†Subject wise in university, I ended up dropping out of arts as I really wanted to finish my degree. Plus the coursework wasn;t easy as the language progressed. Same with science subjects where I only lasted 1 year in a pharmacoloiy/physiology and decided it wasn’t for me. ¬†That’s where I switched to a dafety major in which the content was easier to absorb from a commerce subject to a statistics which was ok to me.¬†I’m definetly no math person either and found words / writing suited me better.

Aspergians struggle with the social side of things, can become easily overwhelmed. I didn’t really get into the whole student parties, clubs etc. When I was invited, I declined. ¬†I did however undertake casual jobs and volunteer work throughout my degree. Sure sex was a common thing but I just didn’t get it nor did it cross my mind. Looking back I didn’t really care, aside from the one encounter (see first timers story).

Yeah sure I had a few crush rejections but honestly, we go through that. There have been one’s that show interest but I have no attraction to.

If I desire something, I find it hard to communicate hence I prefer the males to ask me if they are interested. I couldn’t do all the talking as it sometimes drains me brain cells (if you are an Aspie, then you’ll understand).¬†¬†I too can become overwhelmed on whether they are looking for the same thing or not. If I go through a dry spell¬†then let it be. If there was an opporunity then I’d take it but likewise, not going to overthink it.

Now that I’m older, if i do get invited or if there is a social event, I don’t mind going although I’d rather be dancing the night away ¬†(if there was one) then sitting around and chatting.

I keep things short and sweet and if i need to explain, then I am happy to explain just as long as we are both on the same page.

Making out and excessive cuddling doesn’t do it for me as gives me a sense of being suffocated. I dont mind being ‘touched’ elsewhere though.

Work wise, in relation to my last post, Aspergians can loose focus and that’s what I feel with my past two full time jobs. Sure there are ways to say X and yes these are techniques but do i really have to be a robot? ¬†It doesn’t fullfill me if you have read the last post.

So there is my experience with ¬†Aspergers Syndrome and for those who have goals from personal to learning, I’d say go for it!

Till next time

x L

How I feel right now, career wise.

Here’s another thought post (if you do find them interesting) on a different note:

The job that I do is mentally unstimulating, unfullfilling and dull. At the end of each day I come out feeling blah or drained. I’ve been in the field for nearly 5 years and I feel that I haven’t gone far. I feel like on repeat day in day out when I answer calls and do behind the scenes work. Meeting mintues, setting agendas like providing support is what I am capable of doing. Project work or research is what I’d like to get exposure on. ¬†I’ll only take on positions if suited until I can finish my degree and shift my focus towards public health, unless I find something that is more suited to my career goals. I cant predict the future.

In a place where most have kids, all female (apart from one male but taken), ¬†I would rather tune out to what they say. Also it’s different when your career goals are compeltely different and that I am seeking change. If there was a public health unit or anyone in that field that would like to take me, I put my hand up to get experience!

Where I am work wise, I don’t feel that I am making a difference if that makes sense? I’ve decided to undertake a public health degree to change career paths, ¬†make things better, meaningful and improve the quality of health and life.

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Public health, even the major I studied at my previous univeristy covers occupational health and safety.
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Prevent. Promote. Protect

Will I be able to get experience in those fields?? With colleagues who aren’t on the same focus doesnt make me feel inspired to work there.

Anwyays enough of me ranting :(.

Anyways, over and out.

The end of my longer-break from work.

Yes, as the title says, I am nearing the end of my work break :(. I didn’t take much leave in January this year. Now I only have 2-3 days left but am going to use that for the 2 days that I have at classes this month and my first class is in two weeks.

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Overall what did I do? Aside from the weather being rather shitty and yes some days did drag on and yes it wa snice to sleep in. Th elongest was 3 weeks but that was in transition between my old job and my current.  I did watch Fifty Shdaes Darker, pokemon go hunting in the city (yes I am back on it!), walks, massage and cupping (separate days), caught up with people, visited my uni to check out a few events and appointments.

I tried out an ‘on demand’ app [Pure} this week. It’s a hit amd miss for me as the ones I saw weren’t attractive, far away (why send me a request if you’re so far away). You’ll see same faces pop up time to time again but I’ll ¬†move on thanks. ¬†There’s an upside though so you’re not bombared by heaps of creeps.

It’s only been 5 days so far that I used it. 2 out of the 5 requests i found good looking but far from where I live :(. ¬†Plus it eats my data and having to post every hour = bye data. Once I go back to work, I’ll probs take a break from it and maybe see how much I get billed then decide to unsubscribe.

I stand in the middle. 2.5-3 out of 5. ¬†It depends on the day and time on when you use it. Also it depends where you live as well. The thing I question: nearby but still shows users far away from the suburb? Most likely¬†there’s not much users around my area and/or I’m not game yet to do it but I’ll keep in on my phone. Having one hour limit = less users.

Post break blues but then I remind myself that I have class 2 days this month and then its easter. ¬†A few positions popped up during this time. 5 months ago I had an interview however on the waiting list. There havent been suited jobs during that period which is why I have been out of the application process. I want to get out from where I am and it will come. I remember struggling for a year and two months (temporarily employed) to get my current job and it’s hard but likewise, keep on searching.

Life is life. Recharged is what describes me but once work hits it’s dull mode again. Kind of over where I am now.

This was a good break and I needed it after some rather long weeks at work.

Anyways, over and out.

x L

Gloomy weather, please go away

I hate you rain. You’ve made me gloomy, dull and dampened my mood :(. ¬†I couldn’t fully enjoy myself on the first week off (I have one more week to go) aside from catching up with my friend, casual meetup and ¬†doing a run in between rains. Also, univeristy will be back soon and I saw a few orientation week days. ¬†Oh, and I’m hopping back on the pokemon go. I’m hoping the second week off will birng better weather.

First timers experience.

Today’s post will be on a topic that is of a different nature and it’s mentioned in the title. This is the first time mentioning about a post of this nature so if you’re not comfortable with this content, please don’t read.¬†Be warned, content heavy.

Basically the reason why I chose to loose it later ¬†in life (I’m 28) was because I hadn’t found someone suitable and had no desire to loose it up until that point. 10 years ago where I first started university and a group of girls that I did maths with asked me about my experiences and ¬†completely tuned out. Haha. I also envied those who found boyfriends during campus and didn’t feel comfortable with myself and watched life go by.

Growing up with Aspergers made it hard to tell if a guy liked me or not. I wasn’t into the student parties or clubs and preferred doing my own thing (and being asexual). Later on in my first university years, I encountered someone that I knew in high school and then started casually seeing each other. He then mentioned sex and mentally, I wasn’t ready but just went along with it. Then it was in the male bathroom, freaked out when about perform oral for the first time and then months later he dumped. Then from that point on, I just didn’t really bother with putitng myself out there (aside from my male friends) for a long time why I haven’t been with many guys.

I tell my younger self: Look I know how gutted you feel if someone doesn’t like you back. Goes back to #teenagermode and feels low. Anyways, that passes.

I’ve also had times where one was interested but didn’t reciporate because I didn’t find them attractive or unsure and I’m glad I did.¬†¬†Just because I have male friends doesn’t mean it can go further. I’ve seen it because I went on an awkward date with one of my close friends not long after he dumped me and we decided that it’s better to be buddies.

Then flash forward to work. Someone from my previous workplace as he ¬†appeared to be interested in me. I wasn’t in a good mindset to start something like that plus we lived suburbs away and a year later I left that place to be at my current place. Flash forward, there was someone who I was attracted to at the beginning but he was seeing someone that time. It didn’t bother me and so let it slide. A year passed, we chatted time to time until he mentioned he moved into his own place. When the opportunity came, he was interested in me. That’s when he mentioned he wanted something casual and I wanted the same. After that I mentioned to him that I hadn’t been with many guys and haven’t experienced sex after asking me. First timers have that stigma of being emotionally attached but I made it clear that I wanted pleasure and fun.

I was a little nervous only because I haven’t had much exposure besides touching and fingering. Plus I hadn’t shaved down there and a little nervous on seeing a dick in a long time. Performing oral was a nerve racking as I’d never sucked on a dick and was afriad of choking. Then once it was erect with his guidance, then proceeded to put on a condom and then I got on top of him and slowly went to the top, guided in with a thrust and popped the cherry. It did hurt and bled a bit so out came the lube to make it slide and then we went into missionary for a bit until I was done, mostly due to the feeling of it after being popped. I really enjoyed it and wanted to experience it more. Out arrangment continued until he found a new position, moved out of his place and in with a room-mate and from that point, I didn’t think it would continue after that until this year. We only met so far again twice this year and not sure if we meet again as he may move away when the time comes and have his job transfered down there.

I did meet someone else in between that period but it didn’t go all the way due to our schedules but didn’t feel the need to mention to him when he asked that recently. Other than that, no other guy has approached me since and really didn’t have desire to do so.

There are times where I have sexual desires but don’t really know where to turn to in between those empty periods. I don’t really head out to the nightlife as much. Tinder doesn’t appeal to due linking of facebook accounts.

Where do I stand? I am open to future experiences (not settling down anytime soon though) and taking it as it comes. Slowly. I’ve been encouraged to seek out opportunities¬†and we both enjoyed pleasuring each other in a casual setting and know it’s not going any further. Until he moves, he’s welcome to message me Just make sure you know what you are comfortable with and with safety, consent from both parties and being responsible, it should be enjoyable and pleasurable. Plus I still live at home which is why it can be tricky.

There, I’ve said it. There’s my story of a first timer and I shall see you in my next post!


How to balance all 3 Freeletics Coaches?

Welcome again!

I have now completed my reviews with all three coaches in my previous posts, which are up on my blog. Now the next question is how to balance all three coaches in my training regime? You have access to all three coaches and not sure on how to start? Maybe you would like to focus on 2 and have 1 on rotation. Anyways whatever you want to do, i’m here to give you a rundown on what to expect, consider and keep in mind. The freeletics website is a good start but if you wanted to read personal experience, then keep reading below.

Having access to all three coaches with one subscription was the best thing that freeletics introduced. Before that, I was focusing solely on freeletics gym and having bodyweight / running on rotation. The way my training is structured right now is 3 (4 if i’m lucky) gym days with 2-3 bodyweight sessions and 1-2 runs weekly/fortnighly. This of course can change depending on each week and whether I want to finish a particular ¬†coach week.

My current goal is bulding muscle, becoming stronger and the same time maintaining conditioning. ¬†I’ve set gym coach goals to build muscle and tone body for balanced training. Bodyweight coach is set to strength version and Running right now is fat loss (previousy improve fitness). I find this training system works for me and if I feel that I haven’t worked out hard enough, then I’ll add in a coached day.

With the new bodyweight coach, it’s much easier to combine with another coached day from either running or gym, if it works for you. The weekends are good for this so I have more recovery time in between coached workouts. Examples can include morning then lunch or evening, whatever works for you. I know this may not work for everyone, so choose what works for you. However, keep in mind rest days too and I take at least a day or two. If i’m not feeling up for a scheduled workout, i’ll stick to an easy workout whether a single exercise or a short workout.

The main thing to think about is your fitness goals overall and level at the point in time:

  • Want muscle and be strong? Make gym your focus with ‘Build muscle’ and / or ‘Tone your body’ goals selected, alternate between bodyweight strength workouts and adding in a run once a week/fortnight.
  • Be in better condition?¬†Make bodyweight your focus (Cardio strength), add in gym conditioning workouts and running intervals.
  • Weight loss goal? You’re better suited to make running your focus, then adding bodyweight cardio/cardio strength and gym conditioning with ‘cardio training goal’.
  • Training for an event? Make distance running along with bodyweight workouts a priority and adapt gym goal to ‘Become an athlete’ to see what coach gives you which could include rowing.
  • Overall fitness? ¬†The choice is yours but recommended is bodyweight focused and adding in gym (ideally 2 sessions if you’re experienced with focus ‘increase fitness’) and running (if endurance is your goal).

The above are all suggestions and my experiences in coaches with those options. As I said, the freeletics website will give you a better guidance on the suggested coaches.

Another thing to consider¬†when combining coach days is to make sure that the next workout isn’t as hard as the first. For example, doing 6k run or heavy lower body set then ensure your next workout is upper body and/ or abs focused. Same when vice versa. In my experience, full body workouts from both gym and bodyweight coaches are best left on their own as I find then very taxing on the body.

Next thing to consider is the amount of training days you can commit to. Expect your body to become challenged through a variety of workouts which can sometimes leave you exhausted, especially in two a day workouts. Please don’t workout and go all out 7 days a week if you can’t commit to it (exception is hell week and hell days). If you find yourself with all three coaches with hell weeks, my advice and highly recommend it is to tacke each coach one at a time. Who cares if you’re up to week 30 in bodyweight and only in week 7 ¬†in running coach? ¬†You are in charge of your training. You choose what works for you.

Since all these workouts are of high intensity, make sure to include downtime as well from meditation, mobility, yoga, massages, hot baths to even walking around the block with your pokemon go :). Your body will thank you for it, feel rejuvanted and you can train well in your next workout. Maybe you want to work on that particular skill and not want to train hard on that day? Ok to do that.

You’ll want to keep a close eye on your nutrition intake as different workouts require differnet sorts of ‘fuel’. Going for a run? Eat a banana or simple digestible carbs with a black coffee before going on that run. Heavy gym day? I’d go for carbs and protein to keep your enrgy required for strength. Tuna and rice or a sandwich does the trick for me. Bodyweight workout? ¬†Do whatever works for you, even a black coffee for me does the trick, then an energy drink with a few jellybeans can do. Oh and water intake is a must!

Freeletics and an empty stomach don’t work for me ūüė¶ . Also give your stomach time to digest the food otherwise you’ll end up with a rather unpleasant gurgling sound when doing high knees, climbers and sit-ups.

So there’s my tips and if there are any freeathletes that are combining all three coaches, how are you finding it?

That is all folks and see you in the next post!

Review: Freeletics Running App

Hello again,

As part of the freeletics review series, today’s post will be on the running app. Yes, I run and before that I wasn’t running regularly. I needed an app that will challenge me, improve on cardio and being outdoors. That’s where Freeletics Running came into place.

Freeletics Running was released around the same time as the Gym application and like the Gym application, they had a select group of people to test run the application. You can find these videos (two people?) on youtube under freeletics running transformation.

What is it? Running to become your greatest self.  Freeletics running coach has two components: interval workouts and distances. The interval workouts are named after gods such as Osiris, Seth and distances from 100m to 21km.

When you start up the coach, you indicate how much experience running you have along with your fitness goals and the amount of days you can train each week. Before needing to pay for one subscription to access all three fitness applications, this application required a separate payment.

For me my goal was increasing fitness. The start for me was challenging as I never ran regualrly. It started out with partial interval runs (1/3 sphinx) like in the bodyweight app in the first 4-5 weeks (this was a year ago). After that, the coach really ramps up the distances, including full interval runs. My first full distance was 8k and that really challenged me mentally and physcially.

Hell days comes in in week 6-7  which is 2 runs each day depending on how any trainign days you selected. The minimun coach will give is 3 days. Hell days week took time to complete due to doing other coaches at the same time.  After finishing, coach started giving me 10KM and even 12Km and that really pushed me really hard. Week 11 was hell week and it took me a long time to finish. From that point on, I decided to change my focus to fat loss, hoping it would give me a balance of intervals and distances. Now I am up to Week 15 and did Osiris today and about to finish 10km.

Example of a coach week:

One more coach day to complete: 10KM

With this coach, I allocate at least once (twice maximum) runs each week or fortnighly, hence I can only do 2 coach week days. Due to focusing on bodyweight and gym, running can only be done on the weekends and/or on my days off. Since running is strenous on your body,  you are advised to juggle the other coaches as appropriate :).

What I liked? I liked doing the intervals and not having to think about the distances to run. I am slowly improving with my running capacity and it’s helped with conditioning too. Runner’s high is the best feeling after accomplishing each run and I feel more focused. Option to change days after each week has been a bonus.

What can be improved? Here’s where the running coach could do with major changes.. This is where I suggest the rating option like in the gym and bodyweight application. There are moments where I’ve had to take a few weeks off (the most was a month) and that my times were a bit slower than doing that particular run prevously. I read from a freeletics user who runs regularly to not always chase pbs but to include easy paced runs and will give this advice a go. I think it will be a true measure of running capability and fitness level during that point in time, especially when I can’t committ to running regularly i.e 3-4 times a week.

New gods would be nice to motivate me to use running coach more :). Short interval runs would be great too. That’s why my coach progress has been slow.

Rating: 7.5/10, mostly due to the above suggested improvements.

This is a good start for beginner runners to the experienced too. Without the interval gods and coach, I would have looked elsewhere to include running into my routine.  The lack of coach feedback for each workout is why it loses the 2.5 stars. I am continuing this running application but still scaling back on the coached days until a feedback system is introduced.

Now that you only need to pay for one coach for all three, why not give all three coaches ago? Speaking of which, the next post will be on how I integrate all three coaches into my weekly training regime.

Get started today. No Excuses athlete!

Until next time!


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